Stop the Insanity!

The following two passages could serve as bookends to my life, my recovery, and this experiment.

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results

(Benjamin Franklin)

(Insert Deity/Idol), grant me the serenity

To accept the things I cannot change;

Courage to change the things I can;

And wisdom to know the difference.

(Alcoholics Anonymous, The Serenity Prayer)

In order for this blog to work at all, I have to contribute virtually every day. And in my opinion, to be truly valuable to others, I should be making my most significant contributions on the days that I am least likely to do so; when I am at my weakest, down and unkempt, fighting my thoughts and my internal battles.

Many months into this exercise, it is quite clear that this just isn't going to happen. I can see the repetitiveness of my attempts and the insanity of expecting any change in my behaviour. And whether out of wisdom, frustration or sheer exhaustion, I accept the fact that this is one of those things about me that I cannot change.

So, at least a little bit wiser and saner, I bring this blog to a close and wish everyone battling addictions and everyone fighting for their mental health, the best of luck and an end to feeling alone.

For now anyway....